Dreams And Schemes

With all my life, I have tried to decipher what love meant to me. In vain did I try... I've looked into episodes of life and all I have found is that love is very ambiguous...Like a fluid..Its something that makes people do seemingly impossible things..The world has not gone up in flames because we love, we care... But often there are exquisite moments in life that one cherishes more than a relationship...What happens when in your darkest hours, someone holds your hand and you feel like you could live through your life holding that hand and suddenly its all gone and you are alone again?

Dreams and Schemes

Its a dark dank afternoon

I'm sitting with my chai..

A lonesome raindrop trickles down

The window pane and I..

I'm dreaming up impossible dreams

that end with a regretful sigh..

You were there to see my heart bleed

Witness to the pains I've borne..

Dreams and schemes did I conjure

For times when the storms had gone..

The rope that pulled me from drowning waters

You had held, till it tore..

I long to scream to you-

Look at me now..I'm ashore..

A thousand and one words have I to say

to you for making me believe

That the world would be kind to me

if only I would leave

The portals of my walled world

And learn to embrace

The ways of the world beyond

With a smiling face...

My eyes look for you

Amongst the milling crowd,

An untraceable reassurance

that I have begun to doubt,

Where you an angel sent forth to me?

To help me learn to live

Only to fly away so far

When fantasies I had begun to weave..

A hard fall to the ground below

From the breeze you led me through

A pain somewhere deep in the heart

is all that's left with this blow

There now, the world's just spurned me again..

All that you said was a lie

Dreams and schemes did I conjure

All to end in a regretful sigh..